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I recently had my boss tell me she went to this 4 day seminar/retreat about renewing herself. How at this retreat they taught you to live without the knowledge of your past, forget it... move on. Then she said, "I'd let you take a vacation to go to one of these seminars.". And, I started thinking. Ok I have not really had a full, and I mean full, day off since November 21st. Ok, issue #1.

1. If I am going to get a 4 day vacation from work, about the last I wanna' do is go sit 8 hours a day for four days to forget all the little stories that make my mundane work life bearable. I like my memories, good and bad. I like my past, all of it.

2. If I have 4 days off, I wanna' spend it with my boyfriend whom the major problems in our relationship keep breaking down to the thought that we never get to have any time together. If we get a chunk of time alone together we actually get along swimingly.

3. There is no way on God's green earth I'm gonna' pay $450.00 to have someone tell me your stories from the past should be forgotten. Now I can understand the theory of learning from your past, or not letting the past control who you are in the here and now, but straight up removing what led you to everything you have been that makes you what you are as a person is absolutely ridiculous to me.

Now, on to greater explorations of this topic. My past... how do you say... normal, different, oh thees language confusses me.