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The following are just crazy old posts I never posted.

Nothing

I really don't know what I am doing anymore. I am trying, what for, I really don't know why. I wouldn't say I was sad, numb maybe.


I have wanted to write so many things over the last year, but I feel like I have been in a constant state of shock. Like I can't even figure out what it is I think. I feel like someone kidnapped my ability to understand what it is I truly think. I don't act like myself, I don't dress like myself, I don't do the things I usually do. I feel like I am walking around in disguise. I'm a secret agent. Sent from the higher ups to figure out nothing.